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How to Stop Feeling Small
And become the best version of yourself today
I am reading all these brilliant articles, and I am in awe. I’m completely amazed and overwhelmed by the talent and thoughts of people. I scroll with disbelief, click with astonishment, clap and highlight with ultimate admiration.
Sometimes it’s the words that blow me away, the carefully orchestrated sentences, the perfectly crafted structures, the rhythm, the sound I hear while reading. Sometimes it’s the emotions that wash over me and consume me whole, making me question my whole existence, rethink my life, reconsider my hopes and fears. Sometimes it’s not the words, but the thoughts — the unique wit and eternal wisdom that shines through the simplest words, leaving me breathless, staring amazed, how could he think this up?
And I feel so small.
Past the admiration and the awe, there is a feeling of fear and worthlessness budding inside me. I am reading and I feel like Alice, growing smaller by the paragraph, under the pressure of my own idealistic expectations.
And I hate feeling small, I hate having my inspiration turning into negative self-talk, I hate that virtual words on a screen can lift me up just as much as they can drag me down. I am fine with them lifting me up, but please, can we just not go there…
