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I Want My Sex Drive Back. Like, Now.
Just because I am single, I don’t want to be sexless.
I am not sure when or how it happened but there was a point sometime a few months ago that my sex drive took a dive. I’m not sure if it was gradual or overnight, I just realised that that part of me who would have taken any steps to get my satisfaction — one way or the other — suddenly was gone.
A lot happened and I was trying to make sense of it all.
I met someone at the beginning of the year, who just by existing for one night in my life, cured me of my previous heartbreak. He gave me back the hope that I can date, I can have sex, I can find someone attractive. And also he proved that I can feel attractive, that I am a woman a thousand per cent, and most importantly that sex can be good even if you are not in love (and if you say otherwise you never had that level of magical chemistry and connection that I had).
I even fell in love with him (or maybe fell in lust), but it passed after a few days. We are still in touch, but the distance of being at two separate ends of the continent is not helpful and having totally different lives and lifestyles is not convenient either. Besides, we are not in love to make moves towards each other, so it’s not happening. Maybe it was meeting him, that my libido disappeared.
