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World Suicide Prevention Day
The Art of Learning to Live with Grief
Accepting the unacceptable. Losing a loved one to suicide.
There are things that won’t ever go away — no matter how much you want to drink it away, smoke it away, party it away and laugh away. They stay. No matter how much you want to get rid of them, forget them, make them disappear — they don’t go away, because somehow, somewhere in time and space they became an integral part of you, they are crusted on every fibre of your being, they seeped into your soul, they left an indelible mark on your heart.
You fight them, you throw a fit, you yell and scream and shout — you hurt yourself and you hurt others in the process. You lose yourself and you lose others too. But they can’t go away any more than you can make your breathing go away. You can tune them out, but you can’t silence them any more than you can silence your heartbeat.
You and your demons become one — there is no beginning and no end. There are just ups and downs and more downs than ups mean more hurt and more fighting. Until there is nothing to fight anymore.
Our lives are torn between two poles, the certainty of death and the uncertainty of everything else. And we are balancing somewhere in between, searching for ways to be happy, useful and a better person. It’s one…
