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Why Does Average Love Feel Boring After Love Bombing
My abusive relationship changed the way I think about relationships and I lost my way
Maybe I don’t know what love looks like or what it should feel like. Maybe I am doing this whole dating and expectations and love-life all wrong. Maybe I am still too broken or not healed enough. Or who the hell knows what’s wrong with me. But there is something wrong with me…
Maybe our life is nothing but a series of events where we continuously have to fix ourselves and better ourselves — without knowing precisely what we are doing. Maybe our perceptions of who we should be or how things should turn out are all wrong. Maybe the love that we believe we deserve or what we want is not the love that we need.
I have never been a really girly girl. Never bought into the fairy-tale kind of love and never dreamt about a barefoot wedding on a distant tropical beach. I thought I was way too practical for that and that picture-perfect love stories wouldn’t be something for me. I was okay with not having it at all.
But then, the unexpected happened and I was swept off of my feet in a split second and the promise of an incredible, once-in-a-lifetime love picked me up like a tornado and confused all my senses, lifting me so far away from the reality…
